PhD Journey

salam..welcome back nisaadam... its been a long time I tak update my blog..very lazy but today. 21 september 2015..im back to write about my life..my research life..my adorable daughters..and my wonderful hubby (weee..gediks situ).. now I am in 2nd semester of my PhD and I still not really understand what is my research is about.. (panic mode detected).. x sama time I do my Master degree..i totally motivated..excited and know what I want to achieve in my study. But in my PhD.. I loose the track since this is new area for me to explore. From hard science student to social science student..does it tough for me? and my two growing up princess which are always need my full attention. Seriously mcm nk give up pun ada..tapi tengah pujuk diri sendiri untuk terus kan apa yg i pilih. I just need some motivation from people around me..family..hubby..friends.. hopefully I will keep strong to face the obstacles in my PhD journey..and good luck to everybody and  wish me luck too  :) here are my photos during my master convocation

My Small Family 

Its me..

sajak aku buat

lama aku x mengasah bakat penulisan..so korang jgn terkejut tgk bakat aku yg terpendam ni... (",) 

"Sudah jauh ku melangkah..mampu kah untuk ku bepaling lagi..

Tiba satu saat kurasa kan hidup ini tiada erti untuk diteruskan

Kau hadir disaat hati ini masih miliknya...

Apa daya ku Cuma insan biasa yg tak bisa menahan kehendak jiwa..

Tanpa ku paksa, bercambah rasa sayang pada mu..

Inikah ujian yg perlu ku hadapi..atau pun sakadar ilusi yg bakal memesongkan cinta pertamaku..

Puas ku bertanya pd hati..namun tak juga ku temui jawapan..

Adakah benar apa yg kurasa..Ya Tuhan, aku patut pulang ke jalanmu..

Mencari kepastian, hanya Engkau yg bisa memberi jawapan bg setiap persoalan...

Kenapa mausia akan lalai dalam kehidupan, padahal..jalan ini sentiasa ada pertunjuk buat pedoman kita..

Ku sedar..tiada insan yg sempurna..tiada insan yg berjaya tanpa terjatuh sebelum bangun untuk mencapai kejayaan..

Adakala kita terpaksa berkorban segala yg ada untuk berjumpa dgn hakikat kebanaran yg bakal membawa kita pulang kepangkalNYA..

Percaya atau tidak...Ini lah kehidupan...

Semoga apa yg terjadi dalam kehidupan ini bisa mengajar ku erti mencari hakikat sebenar sebuah perhubungan yg abadi..

Cinta manusia datang dan pergi..sekuat mana diikat, di pegang agar tidak teputus ditengah jalan..tetap ada anasir yg bisa merobohkan ikatan itu..

Kenapa??Sudah jauh ku melangkah..mampu kah untuk ku bepaling lagi..

Tiba satu saat kurasa kan hidup ini tiada erti untuk diteruskan

Kau hadir disaat hati ini masih miliknya...

Apa daya ku Cuma insan biasa yg tak bisa menahan kehendak jiwa..

Tanpa ku paksa, bercambah rasa sayang pada mu..

Inikah ujian yg perlu ku hadapi..atau pun sakadar ilusi yg bakal memesongkan cinta pertamaku..

Puas ku bertanya pd hati..namun tak juga ku temui jawapan..

Adakah benar apa yg kurasa..Ya Tuhan, aku patut pulang ke jalanmu..

Mencari kepastian, hanya Engkau yg bisa memberi jawapan bg setiap persoalan...

Kenapa mausia akan lalai dalam kehidupan, padahal..jalan ini sentiasa ada pertunjuk buat pedoman kita..

Ku sedar..tiada insan yg sempurna..tiada insan yg berjaya tanpa terjatuh sebelum bangun untuk mencapai kejayaan..

Adakala kita terpaksa berkorban segala yg ada untuk berjumpa dgn hakikat kebanaran yg bakal membawa kita pulang kepangkalNYA..

Percaya atau tidak...Ini lah kehidupan...

Semoga apa yg terjadi dalam kehidupan ini bisa mengajar ku erti mencari hakikat sebenar sebuah perhubungan yg abadi..

Cinta manusia datang dan pergi..sekuat mana diikat, di pegang agar tidak teputus ditengah jalan..tetap ada anasir yg bisa merobohkan ikatan itu..

Kenapa??

okey..yg last question tu harap korang bole jawab sendiri k..big why?? huhuhu

very meaningful song

 hi all..lately i am very a jiwang person..suka dengar lagu jiwang-jiwang..

aku suka menghayati lirik-lirik lagu..from the lyric I can determine whether the song is good or not.

mcm lagu gadis jolobu : Dato Hattan feat Waris..

cer korang dengar words yg Waris duk rapp tu..semua tu ade makna ok.. ;) 

and lagu yang paling aku x suka is lagu Liayana Jasmay..yang lagu " aku x percaya cinta" (pls insert nada gedik bile nyanyi lagu ni) 

 here is my fav song all the time.. and i dedicate to my love hub

All Of Me"

[Verse 1:]
What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, ohoh

update

sejak menjumpai kembali blog ku ini  (xpayah nk sejak sgt sebab bru smlm je ak jumpa blog ni)
jari-jemari ku ringan je nk mencoretkan update2 terkini..
Today supposedly aku mengregisterkan diri untuk menjadi post-graduate students for PhD, budak2 lab aku dulu gi tau PhD stand for

 P = Permanent
 H = Head
 D  = Damage

see.. bertapa ngeri nya maksud PhD tue.. therefore, ak belum habis berfikir lagi..adakah ak wajar menyambung study ke peringkat tersebut. Namun, mmg ada niat nk sambung but maybe bukan masanya lagi..

So arini aku mcm biasa ke office level 4 DSI, for your info registration post-graduate kat bwah tu je.. ;)
time datang td, aku nampk beberapa org students tgh mendaftar..ada yg bwk mak ayah lagi.. giler semangat..
I wish you guys best of Luck in your study :)
and me will register later..tunggu duit mybrain dulu la..coz i have no money nk bayar yuran tau...huhu..

xoxo

Lama ku Tinggalkan...

bukan kene tinggal tp owner blog terlupa akan kewujudan blog nye boleh macam tu?
boleh kan aje..
but I am back...back for good ok..
this is 2015 and I am still sweet 20 ye.. ;)
I have few numbers new year resolution
haloo.. ni dh masuk February.. its ok..as long as u ade new resolution xkisah la awal bulan..hujung bulan or tgh bulan... you can always write it down and try to achieve them.

1 - Wanna be a good Muslimah/Mother/Wife/Daughter
2 - Want to build new career

Okey thats all i wanted to be.. To Allah I pray to help me to full fill my new year resolution, give me strength, give me faith, give me guidance and always be with me..InsyaALLAH.

hope your wish will come true as well. Amin..